Lately I have been very bogged down by this semester's course load. The schedule isn't so bad- I'm in a practicum 2 days a week (in an elementary classroom full time with a cooperating teacher), I work 1 full day a week, have class 1 full day a week, and the other day is split between work and class. (I have a Mon-Fri 8-5 job where I can make my own part-time hours, as a student, so I can't work on the weekends. My work time has been cut by a full day because of my schedule this semester)
The thing that I am most bent out of shape about is what we have to do during our time in and out of the elementary classroom. There are so many things to get done, and I'm so overwhelmed I can't even bring myself to put all the dates on my calendar and organize everything. That's usually my favorite part.
I decided that I need to make a plan. I actually started to organize some dates last weekend on an Excel spreadsheet but I couldn't finish it. I got extremely discouraged because the syllabi I had wasn't organized enough (can you tell I'm type-A?) and everything got to be too much. I finally made a schedule for everything I needed to do in my elementary classroom for a grade, but it's still going to be stressful implementing it because the teachers I'm observing (2 of them that aren't a part of practicum) are very rigid and always doing something in the short time I'm there, so I don't have time to coordinate with them. They don't respond to their e-mails and I'm only in their class for an hour and a half some weeks.
Regardless, I'm making everything happen, and I'm trying my best. I was having a heart to heart with Chris about the fact that I feel so stressed and bogged down this semester and he said that I just have to get through this rough part to be in a better place. So true! However, it's especially hard for me because I don't want to just get through it- I want to excel.
Since I had a nasty flu for a week and a half, my spirits were lower than usual too. The past few days have helped bring me out of it- I love working with my practicum teacher and the kids, and I've bonded a bit more with my cohort as well. I think things are coming together, and I've been trying to embrace everything that has been thrown my way. It's working. (:
How has this year been for you all so far? Any major challenges? Lack of motivation? How're you getting through it?
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